riding the waves
I've been thinking of writing down some things about me, so that blog readers can get to know me a little bit. As part of a series that I will add to my it's me mrmr page. Because I love reading about that on other blogs. I love getting a little peek into someones life! So I'm leading by example I guess, and will write the first post of the series.
As someone who has blogged and documented in some form on the internet since I was uhhh, around 14, I guess... I am trying to be mindfull about where and what I blog. Since 2025 I made the step to delete all my separate blogs and go all in on bear. This is my first online place where I share things and still feel partly anonymous at the same time. It's the magic of bear and it's anonymity that I like so much. So by making this series and sharing it, I will reveal more of myself. But I will try to stay anonymous at the same time. Wish me luck ;)
So let's start with the first one...
let the waves take me
One thing I want to dive into today, is something people sometimes tell me. I've had some comments in the past about how I do what I do. Because to outsiders it looks like I have a lot going on, I am accomplishing a lot. Other people seem to be astonished by my quickness and the amount of time I need to build or create something. Of course they only see the tip of the iceberg. What I present to the world.I'm someone who flourishes from new ideas and energy. Or what they nowadays say: dopamine hits. If something doesn't interest me, I just can't get myself to do it. This was always great in school, when a subject just didn't interest me... I didn't pay attention and didn't make any homework ;)
As an adult there's more room to choose or follow what you want. You can follow your interests more easily. So that is what my life looks like. I go from one hobby to the next. I always follow where energy rises and what makes me curious. I completely dive into a subject or hobby and let myself go nuts! Something that is also called a hyperfocus. This can happen with random things. It takes over my brain for some time until it is satisfied. And in most cases I never look at it again.
So I understand why people think I am great at picking up projects and having something to show in just a short amount of time. It's the hyperfocus, completely absorbing me and going all in.
What they don't see, is that I sleep very badly until the focus wears off. That I sometimes spent too much money on a hobby that I will never look at again in just a few weeks. And that I sometimes feel lost when I don't have a focus. A lot of times I can't really choose the focus, it chooses me. And I'm still learning how to control it a bit more. Or at least ride the waves more softly ;) For now I just try to enjoy every hyperfocus and try to make it into something fun and learn something from it.