a meditation epiphany
Today I had an epiphany...
I'm always struggling with trying to meditate. I have a hard time with it if I have to sit still. And I know it's normal that thoughts come up, and I just have to let the thoughts go then. That's all part of the process. That's even exactly what meditating is; noticing that your mind wanders and bringing it back. But still, I don't feel that sitting and meditating is 'my way' of meditating. So I've been looking into other ways. It's one of my goals on my now page.
The epiphany I got today while doing a qi gong lesson. As a mom you sometimes have to be smart about the (limited) time you have. So why am I looking for ways to meditate, when my qi gong lesson IS meditating? Why not count that as meditating? Because the lessons with a focus on flow give me a quieter mind than any sitting meditation I ever did... Maybe I'm not made to sit still and notice my thoughts. Maybe I'm a person that has to move and feel the body to get the mind quiet?
So, looking for ways to meditate is something I will let go now. What I will do, is keep doing a 5 day qi gong challenge every week. Because setting that goal seems to be the best way so far to really do 5 lessons a week. And that ensures a calm mind too. Five times a week! That's more than I ever meditated in 7 days... Problem fixed ;) Sometimes you have to try to see something in a different light.